*** Trigger Warning *** Post Topic: Rape *** Trigger Warning ***
One of my relationships was with a manipulative, controlling man, who would throw things at me and start screaming, whenever I did not “behave” according to his wishes. God help me, I hated his guts for the way he treated me. Because of that I denied him physical contact and intimacy.
Being told ‘no’ was unacceptable for him. He was going to get what he wanted, regardless. Once, I woke up in the middle of the night, while he sexually assaulted me. I pushed him off before he could finish. But he did this at least one more time. How do I know that? Because it is literally the only way how he could have gotten me pregnant. That was 21 years ago.
To this day I hate myself for not pressing charges at the time. I should have put his rotten ass in jail, or at least make sure, that he’d be registered as a sex offender for the rest of his life. In hindsight I truly wish, that I wouldn’t have been in such a state of emotional paralysis back then. And much like most other women do, I buried myself in work and tried my best to forget about everything.
Trivialities & Intricacies 