The evening before last, seemingly out of nowhere, I thought about rearranging my living room. But why wait for daylight, when there’s no time like the present moment? Yep, I rolled up my sleeves and started moving furniture at 7 PM. I got pretty much everything done, with the exception of one shelf. I could not make up my mind on its placement. This morning I asked my friend to come over to share her thoughts and ideas about it with me. And we agreed rather quickly, that the shelf in question should stay where it currently is. But then, she asked if she could show me a couple of other ideas. Trying to be open-minded I gave her the go ahead. They were only minor changes. M.I.N.O.R., but inside of me everything went haywire. When she finished pulling the couch away from the wall a bit, and arranged the table and chairs just slightly different, I was unable to pay attention to the story she was telling me. My focus was entirely on the little changes she made and how much that bothered me. Gawd, am I such a control freak? Frightening? Yea, just a little bit…
My friend was barely out the door and I put the furniture back. As soon as everything was in its intended place again I was so relieved, I’m ashamed to admit. I felt like a pressure cooker, ready to explode. Unbelievable.
However, instead of getting upset or frustrated with myself, I remembered one of the Big Bang Theory episodes, in which Amy tries to cure Sheldon of his compulsive need for closure. His issue is a bit different from my desire for ‘order and perfection’, but I sympathize with him and can relate to that overwhelming need. A few good laughs saved my day and I’m grateful beyond words for it. Below, I’m sharing a clip from that episode. Maybe it will help you get through something upsetting as well…
Trivialities & Intricacies 