My favorite month of the year is September. The seasons are changing from summer to autumn, with more comfortable temperatures during the day and cooler nights for better sleep.
Not to mention, that it is absolutely beautiful when the leaves begin to change colors. I take in the beauty around me very consciously and appreciate it, before winter comes with mostly grey-ish, drab weather. Cooler days towards the end of September also ring in the season of fall/winter vegetables, and with it oven baked meals and hearty stews, yumm-tumm-tumm 😊.
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Magnificently Ignored
Especially during my twenties and thirties I should have trusted my instincts. Instead, I did a magnificent job at ignoring them and paid my dues for doing so. Now, much older and a tiny bit smarter, I listen and place the proper value into those little warning signals from deep within. It took quite long enough, to be sure. And still, better late than not at all.
No More Performance Mask
Gosh, it used to be of utmost importance, that others perceive me as a jovial and pleasant person, someone, they’d like to be around and spend time with. Interestingly enough, the harder I tried to give off a good first impression, the more my efforts seemed to backfire. The feedback I received was rather negative. Most often I was told, that my behavior came across as rehearsed and artificial [which it was, and remains to be due to autism]. And still, that criticism felt like a punch to the gut for all my “hard work”. From then on, I started to be more authentic. That wasn’t necessarily well received either, but I began feeling more like myself instead of a performer.
Nowadays I can’t claim indifference about how others perceive me, but I’m not putting on the “out-in-public-performance-mask” anymore. I’ve learned throughout the years, that I’m not “everybody’s cup of tea” and that’s okay because I don’t aspire to be. No one’s arm is being twisted to like me. Trying to be true to myself is the ticket, I think. Those around me always have the option to either take me the way I am, or to steer clear. Have a lovely Sunday!!
Yawning From Front To Back Cover
The book I’m currently [and forcedly] trying to get through is by a German author named Manuela Inusa. The book is entitled “Blumenmeere” which roughly transaltes to “flower seas”.
Iris is an up and coming artist known for her paintings of girls holding, or being surrounded by flowers. She learns, that her boyfriend is cheating on her with her best friend since childhood.
In an effort to save the friendship, the two women meet for a clarifying conversation. Instead they separate in anger, and Iris becomes witness to her friend’s death, because she carelessly runs
into the street and gets hit by a bus. Lost in anger, sorrow and self blame, Iris moves in with
her grandmother who raised both her and her sister. And of course, in due time she meets a
new man, who happens to be just the kind of guy she was looking for all her life…
What a traumatic start, to be sure. Unfortunately, the way this story unfolds is utterly predictable. The book becomes unnecessarily long-winded and boring. [That’s just my humble opinion].
It is rather disappointing that Iris’ reflecions of the past, including her own behavior, don’t lead to the understanding, that she is at fault as well. She continues to blame her former best friend. And of course she meets a new man […and yada, yada, yada…] the story will probably end with “happily ever after”. I won’t know, because I’m going to find something else to read and make a junk journal out of this book. Yep, I like that idea ☺ Hopefully the next book will hold my interest from front to back cover. Thanks very much for your visit to my blog today. Enjoy your weekend!!
Lovely Alternatives
I would absolutely love to go back to the USA. However, I’m talking about the beautiful PRE Trump country I left in April 2014, to be perfectly blunt. Now, with everything we hear about America in the news here, no thank you, I’m so disappointed to say.
Lovely alternatives to America would be Canada, New Zealand or Scotland. Question is, when can I leave? 😊 Have a great day!!
That Was Unexpected!
Daily writing prompt
What part of your routine do you always try to skip if you can?
My response to today’s question may miss the mark, but it’s the only answer I have…
The routine I have in place brings a bit of structure into each day, which in turn makes me feel safe. There are a couple of elements throughout the day, that I could happily do without, no doubt about it. But skipping either one would shake up the entire carefully established construct. I would not do myself a favor. Instead I try not to be grumpy, or complain about having to do those chores. The wise words “fake it until you make it” help a lot.
What I would gladly love to skip are unexpected and unplanned situations or things to be done. Why? Because I lack the flexibility to just go with the flow and with it, the ability to rearrange my day accordingly if the need arises, because of my established routine. It’s a bit of a vicious cycle, no?
Love Without Budget
Daily writing prompt
Name the most expensive personal item you’ve ever purchased (not your home or car).
The most money I ever spent was not for an ‘item’, it was on one of my puppy girls named Mandy. During the last three years of her life, she developed a heart condition that required regular monthly checkups, xrays, blood work and a shot to keep her as healthy as possible. And no, don’t go there, I was not tormenting her. The doctors at our trusted animal hospital assured me every time, that she was not suffering and still had a good quality of life. They would never have allowed for Mandy to endure pain and suffering, and neither would I have, ever. Period. Okay? In total, over the years I spend roughly $30.000 for her treatments as well as the at home medications. You may gasp for air now, and that’s fine. Wouldn’t you do everything you could for your children? Well, my dogs are my fur kiddos and the same concept applies. Ridiculous? By all means, have your opinion. I don’t care. My dogs have always been, and always will be, the greatest joy and blessing in my life. Their well being significantly adds to my own. And the love I have for ‘my girls’ doesn’t come with a budget or a price tag attached. I will gladly give all I can afford, to keep them healthy and happy. Because my heart beats for dogs, and that won’t ever change. Have a lovely Sunday!! 🥰
Pay Attention!
I don’t have a properly working ‘screen time management’. However, a rather short attention span seems to be a blessing in disguise. It is high time to shut the computer down, when I become fidgety and easily distracted. Sometimes during a YouTube documentary or crafting video, I hit pause and try to recall what I just saw and heard. If I find myself struggling, the website will be added to the ‘watch-it-later’ list and the computer gets a well deserved break.
A Happily Uneventful Life
Throughout the years I realized, that life doesn’t seem to agree with the plans I make. Goals, hopes and dreams are a part of my past, because it’s the kind of disappointment I don’t need anymore. I do my best at taking life the way it comes, one day at the time. Simple as that. Three years from now? I don’t see my life being a whole lot different from today. As long as I’m done with drama, difficulty and people hurting me, I will count my blessings and happily lead an uneventful life with Lilly by my side.
With Curiosity And Fearlessness
Children have this sense of wonder, a never ending curiosity. And instead of questioning the outcome, or being worried about potential difficulties, they follow through with whatever it is they’ve set their hearts on doing [unless their parents get wind of the intentions first, and prevent them from happening].
In my humble opinion, the majority of adults have lost these valuable traits, myself included.
Happy hump day!! ☺
Trivialities & Intricacies 
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