Throughout the years I realized, that life doesn’t seem to agree with the plans I make. Goals, hopes and dreams are a part of my past, because it’s the kind of disappointment I don’t need anymore. I do my best at taking life the way it comes, one day at the time. Simple as that. Three years from now? I don’t see my life being a whole lot different from today. As long as I’m done with drama, difficulty and people hurting me, I will count my blessings and happily lead an uneventful life with Lilly by my side.
Category: Blogging
Going Mint
Are you more upset about the fact, that Windows 10’s death warrant has been signed? Or that your computer still works perfectly well, but can’t be upgraded to Windows 11? Both is annoying up to no Sunday in my humble opinion. Because like many others out there, I stick with what’s tried and true. But here we are, a solution is needed. First off: screw yourself into oblivion, dang Microsoft! And then, another option is Linux. With my very limited computer knowledge and a little bit of research I found out, that Linux Mint isn’t all that different from Windows 10, and that quite a few people who live on a tight financial budget are giving this a shot. And here I am, thinking, what they can do, I will do as well. Thank the good heavens for YouTube, let me tell you. I don’t know how many video tutorials I watched until I felt somewhat prepared to make the switch. Yesterday was the day and all went well, except Lenovo’s damn boot menu. This menu is a witch on her broomstick and it took, I don’t know, 85 tries until it finally opened up. In the end it was more dumb luck rather than knowledge or freaking F12! But I got it installed and working properly. Hooray!! Now it’s just a matter of getting used to this new operating system and my little netbook can continue living. Mint is my new flavor, and Microsoft can buzz the fluff off 😊
With Curiosity And Fearlessness
Children have this sense of wonder, a never ending curiosity. And instead of questioning the outcome, or being worried about potential difficulties, they follow through with whatever it is they’ve set their hearts on doing [unless their parents get wind of the intentions first, and prevent them from happening].
In my humble opinion, the majority of adults have lost these valuable traits, myself included.
Happy hump day!! ☺
After All…
…She Was Correct,
and who would have thought that? Well not my mom, apparently…
It is an ongoing issue between the both of us, that she questions nearly everything I say. No matter if I read something, had a conversation with someone, or draw from my own life experience. She won’t believe it, until two to three other people tell her the exact same thing, or she hears about it on TV. You know, I try to keep calm on the outside. But it drives me bonkers inside. What is her point? Does she think her daughter is a notorious liar? Of all people she should know, that I’m terrible at “telling tales”, and therefore gave up even trying.
Most recent example: A few months ago, I read an article about feeding birds and the best types of feeders. It was stated, that a classic birdhouse, while adorable to look at, is not hygenic. Due to the fact, that the little visitors can get inside and leave their droppings among the seeds, others may end up getting sick. It was suggested to use feeders with just small openings instead.
After reading the article, I purchased one of those feeders. When I brought this topic up in conversation, the response was something like this: “And straight away you’re in panic mode, believe everything you read and make the suggested changes. Yes, it can happen and the birds could get sick, but what are the chances of it happening”?
Now just the other day, in one of her evening shows on TV they discussed this very topic. And what do you know? The very next morning she said to me: “Oh, you know what? You were actually right about the bird feeders. They talked about it last night on TV. Do you still have that other bird feeder for me to use, so that I can take the birdhouse down”?
Honestly, I’m getting to the point at which deep breaths, counting to five and all the “om’s” in this world won’t help anymore. Does my mom think I make up stories? What would I achieve by doing that? I should not let it get to me, I know. But it does take a toll, increasingly so. Most of all I can’t help but wonder, what that says about our mother-daughter-relationship in general.
Abracadabra
🧞♀️ good health
🧞♀️ that I finally find my true purpose
🧞♀️ a reason for a more positive outlook
Here On Earth
To admire the moon at night, while I listen to my favorite songs, is plenty good enough for me. Instead of going to the moon, I prefer to save that money and visit some beautiful places here on earth. Have a lovely Saturday 😊
Moving On Up
I’m proud of the life I build for myself during my twenty years in America.
To Live The Understanding
This type of question, and the way I understand it, is upsetting. My become-a-better-person project list is quite lengthy, while rather slow and unsteady bits of improvement add a huge amount of frustration at the same time. Why don’t we include yet another task to the evolve-into-your-best-self agenda, and watch it get lost in the mush of all other projects, that are in various states of progress? [Sarcasm Off].
To understand, that the people I am surrounded by at present, as well as in the future, are not at fault for the hurt caused by individuals of the past is one thing. To actually live that understanding, and to stop collectively treating everyone in the here and now unfairly is yet another. This is something I am currently trying to make headway on.
Unbelievably Lighthearted
It’s not lost on me that, especially here on WordPress, I may come across as a problem loaded, difficult to deal with and contemplative person. And if you indeed see me that way, you are not entirely incorrect. Believe it or not, I can be lighthearted, funny and sweet as pie. Unfortunately only a few people, with whom I have a meaningful, deep connection truly know me that way.
Finding The Balance
Honestly? I’m on the fence on this one…
Lazy days always come with a little bit of guilt attached, as in ‘you should do this, that or the other thing’, instead of resting and being unproductive. At the same time, I don’t subscribe to this ‘the busier and more rushed your day is, the better and more fashionable’ you become as a person. Because you do want to keep up with, and be acknowledged as “equally busy” by your family and social circle.
I don’t have that problem anymore. My busy and stressful days with long work hours, having time for my animals and friends, chores and errands are over. Do I miss them? Nope, to be perfectly blunt. Sure, looking back on a productive day gives you a good feeling. But since I’m retired, and my days have become a lot more chill than before, I feel so much better and am not the least bit ashamed to admit that. I have days now when I’m bursting with energy, and don’t want to slow down until everything on the agenda is accomplished. And I have days, especially when ‘the sadness’ comes, where the simplest of things become a huge effort and I’m ‘lazy’, but not by choice. Most often, however, I’m perky and eager to get things done in the mornings. The afternoons are reserved for Lilly and our lovely, relaxing walks. When we return it’s time for crafting, diamond painting [newly discovered], reading, YouTube, etc. In other words, it’s a little of both and I’m okay with that. I don’t need anyone’s approval with regard to my productivity level. If I’m too lazy in your opinion, then twirl yourself into oblivion for all I care – no offense, but deal with your own existence and leave me to mine. Thanks!!
But you know what’s truly awesome about lazy days – no matter how frowned upon and unpopular they may be? Those are the days, when I come up with the best ideas, find great solutions to problems and make sense of the emotional chaos in my head. And the more I stop fighting those unproductive, lazy days during my ‘sad periods’, the more easily I get throught them. Ridiculous, but true. It’s a balance between both, that works best for me. You certainly are entitled to your opinions, I just don’t have to care. Peace and laziness for us all 🥰🤣
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