It doesn’t make sense to me, that any one person seeks security or adventure exclusively. Is what you need necessarily what it is you truly want? Allow me to try and explain my conundrum…
If the above mentioned thought is broken down to a personal level, that surely applies to me. Due to Asperger autism and Misophonia, routines, schedules and structure throughout the day create necessary predictability, which in turn makes me feel secure.
At the same time, this security [or hamster wheel, if you want] bores me to tears and I want nothing more, than to break free from what ‘keeps me safe’ and some-form-of-happy. Another example: When I had to move from one apartment to the other, within my mom’s house [don’t ask, the story is annoying], a part of me was excited, because this created new opportunities with regard to decorating and organzing everything [adventure]. Yet it would disturb my need for order and structure [security] because chaos is my worst enemy, well one of them.
My apartment is my fortress and highly valued safe space [security]. Yet, that little whisper deep within tries to convince me, that I’m not ‘the stationary type’. I’d much rather grab Lilly, a few necessities and take off into whichever direction the wind blows me, to stay there however long I like [adventure]. I guess where I am trying to go with this is, that I’m always at odds with myself. And in the end, to answer today’s question, I would have to choose security over adventure. Because venturing out into the world to discover, no matter how much desired, won’t be enjoyable without the above mentioned ‘safety measures’, to get me through the day with the least amount of meltdowns, angry fits and tears. How did the Rolling Stones sing it? “You can’t always get what you want”, and that sure is true. Happy Sunday!!
Trivialities & Intricacies 